Poems on Gender

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TRANSITION 

Some things hurt so bad you have to cut them out 
You have to be like a soldier 
Who digs a bullet out of their own flesh 
Pinches the wound together 
And marches on 

Was it like that for you 

If I had loved you better 
If I had loved you more 
You would have been stronger 
Would that have made a difference 
I don’t know 

They told me you would kill yourself 

       My child was a beautiful baby 
My baby is a beautiful child
A rainbow 
One of a kind 

This is what I believe 
You came for my child 
You took a rainbow and forged it into a knife 
You were nothing but a hammer looking for a nail 
How could you not understand that a rainbow 
Is not a problem to be solved 
It’s a rainbow 

Did you wound my child or heal them 
How can we ever know 
You stormed in like a Jesuit missionary 
Waving a holy book as if it were a sword of truth 

Listen to the children you say 
But you don’t know what listening is 
It’s engagement, it’s giving back 
Love is struggle – not war, but not surrender 
You never give up on each other 

       My child was a beautiful baby 
My baby is a beautiful child 
A rebel spirit 
A revolutionary 

This is what I believe 
The body is the foundation 
When the body dies, the music stops 
Physical transition comes with a lifelong cost 
So of course you would try to avoid it 
Not at any price 
But that’s where you would start  
How could you not understand this 

We all sing the body electric 
We all sing out of tune 
Perfect harmony is boring 
Rules have teeth
Rules have claws 
But even the harshest rules 
Make a beautiful sound 
When they’re broken 

We should break rules  
Not bodies 
Bodies are a fact 
We give them meaning 
But the fact remains  
We can cut them up 
We can cage them 
Or we can set them free 

       My child was a beautiful baby 
       My baby is a beautiful child 
       Always and forever 
For more on this topic, see also GENDER ESSAY – Chapter One: Affirmative Care/Conversion Therapy for Children
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